semi-deep thoughts.

anyone who has known me for more than an hour knows that i love music. ALL music. and i know so many people say "i listen to everything!" but they are liars. you know these people i speak of: the ones who play the same five songs over and over every time they get ahold of your ipod in the car? yeah, those.

anyways, when i say that i love all music i suppose i should clarify that i love all music that makes me feel something. it can be anything. it can be a ridiculous rap song that makes me laugh or dance like a fool, or some crazy rock song that makes me want to run a thousand miles, or some guy with a guitar that makes me wish there really were guys out there that believed the things he was saying. the playlists on my ipod are actually organized this way. (10 loser points for that)

what i appreciate the most are songwriters that are still trying to make music that is meaningful, that makes us stop and reevaluate what we think about our own lives. i wish i had that kind of ability; to have a talent that touched the lives of others. that would be sweet. 

my new guy of the moment is brett dennen. he has this voice that is haunting, but beautiful in his own uniqueness. and his lyrics blow me away...they make you think. i can only listen to one of his songs at a time because i have to take time to digest what he's saying. i love it. 

below are the lyrics to his song "make the most". it's about truly appreciating the time we have and learning to live it to the fullest. at this time in my life, when i have so much stress and work, i find it easy to wish life away, just hoping to get through days, weeks, years. why?? what am i waiting for? my life doesn't start at some arbitrary point somewhere in the future, it's happening right now. i don't want to wake up one day and realize i've tried to fast forward my whole life. so i've been listening to this song every day, to try and make myself grasp what i've been given, to pour a cup of life. the Lord has filled my whole life with so many wonderful blessings; i need to live everyday in celebration and appreciation of all that He has given me. 

"i have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." john 10:10

make the most

and in the morning when i rise

one question, that feels like the sun in my eyes:

am i making the most of this life?

so much trouble and so much strife.

and in my guilty hour

through all of my shame,

when all my love is run sour,

i have no one else to blame.

'cause it finds me through the mask i wear

and i see it through my eyes closed.

but still i cannot bear to stare into my worries and my woes.

there's comfort in self-loathing and it's easy to slip into it.

but still i must learn to lead my life with no regrets.

all the time it all moves in the same direction,

so don't let it pass you by.

because it moves so fast, there's no time for perfection.

so make the most of this life,

make the most of this life, oh

make the most of this life

make the most of this life.

and when i fall i fall hard.

and i dwell too often in my faults.

i must accept it and move on,

there's just no shame in having to crawl

'cause it finds me through the mask i wear, 

and i see it through my eyes closed.

but still i cannot bear to stare into my worries and my woes.

there's comfort in self-loathing and it's easy to slip into it.

but still i must learn to lead my life with no regrets.

all the time it all moves in the same direction,

so don't let it pass you by.

because it moves so fast, there's no time for perfection.

so make the most of this life, oh

make the most of this life, oh

make the most of this life

just make the most of this life.

and if you come to me smiling

oh i, will see you shining out from within.

such a beautiful grin,

aw

falling down on me and freckling my skin.

wake i and pour i a cup of

wake i and pour i a cup of

wake i and pour i a cup of life.